Alone I crawl to bed
Sad and solemn thoughts running through my head
Bed creaks
Body hits the sheets
Inside my conscious screams
Lucky no one else
Inside this house
Can hear internals bleed
Up at night
Crying till first light
Darkened days
Look into my eyes
See the pain
The dismay
I'm a perplexed
Intoxicated broken mess
Used to be expensive
What to her made me worth... less? (Worthless)
She turned me from an optimist to a pessimist
But I guess now at least now I got some bars to spit
Cause whether id chased her
Or id just let her go
I would have always wondered and pondered over what ill never know...
Watch me bleed
Watch me Cry
Watch me die
Watch me succumb to life
Watch me vibe
I want to hide
I want to restore
The allure
I want back what I once wore
Cause now all I am is worn, Torn and physically f*cking deformed
I'm not in love with who you are
I'm still in love with who you were
I'm still torment with the pain, you ingrained in me
You put pain in me
You put shame in me
I'm concaving in
Spoke to god
God asked me
Why don't you just give up on living, why don't you just give in
I spoke to him
He spoke to me
He watched me bleed
They wanna watch you cry
Wanna watch you die
Wanna watch the joy fade from your eyes
Why?
I don't know?
Does the devil roam among us cloaked in people robes
Crushing souls
Breaking hearts
Spewing vile malevolence from here to afar
I should be up in arms
It's an utter farce
Why is empathy on this earth so f*cking sparse?
Why are emotions like notions were not allowed to be toting
Blindly groping, at the walls, toward my goals
Left to find a path
And lead myself out of the dark
Pull my head in line
Drag my heart and soul back
From the impact, Site
Cry me a river
I cried you a f*cking damn
No longer will you treat me like half a FUCK-ING MAN!
Does your mind wonder through the cloth, And through the sheets?
Wonder the cold silence of the darkest nights
And traverse the streets?
Aa phantom of the person you used to be
A ghost of the life you used to lead
Todays a painful reminder
My open mind opens wider
As the Flames surround me
My blistered heart is pounding
But this wont ground me
I don't perspire
Fall as you examine the prior
My mind rewired
Witness my nonverbal expression of perception
Examine the composite of my composure
With everyday sanity edges closer
Stand alone to stand apart
Leave those who doubt you in the dark
Your light wont shine without a spark
Your light empowers more to find their path