Exiled Within - Avenoir Lyrics

30
A bullet to the brain or a noose around the neck
Jump off a bridge to hopefully crack open this head
To release these demons that have plagued this life
(These demons in my life they keep my dreams from taking flight)
To release these dreams that never took flight

29
(These demons in my life)
An anxious waiting or yearning
Every second passed is a wasted opportunity
So will the road become clear or will it fade to ash
For in one earth cycle my end will become my past

26
A short while ago things seemed so open, so free
Dancing on the wrong side of 25 has made me scared of 30
But progress I must to find my path of broken wings and shattered bone
Cause without faith in a better tomorrow
(Cause without faith in a better tomorrow)
What's the point of leaving home

23
The days are long and my patience grows short
(What's the point of leaving home)
The realization of my life falling apart searching for art was noble at best
So I continue to be optimistic as time is still on my side
With 30 nowhere near me now but a faint silhouette in the skyline

20
The reason to be happy and alive is all around
And yet I urge myself to be down
There's an ache in my veins that never seems to dissipate
There's love in my life and love in my heart
But I want the world to be as I envisioned
Barely surviving but chasing a reason

16
The end almost came a decade and a half early
The only one expecting such a possibility was me
If I could take my last breath today
The world would be free of one less burden
If I would have taken my last breath today
I would have saved so many from hurting
(If I, could take my last breath, I would have saved you from me)

14
Please don't tell me it gets worse than this
Everything is laced in pain
It's becoming the only way I know how to live
(I could have saved you from me)
But a fire deep down inside continues to believe
That what I've gone through will eventually mean something

12
Apparently it's the weather that's always affecting my mood
Apparently I should just ignore it and keep focusing on my school
But that doesn't seem right cause it stings when I breathe
It doesn't seem right to always have my heart flutter whenever I bleed

Eight
The first time this life ever held weight
The first time my brain started this war against my strength
My will to live is there, but my brain tricks my heart
There's an uncertainty in the air
I feel I was only made to fall apart
(I was only made to fall apart)
(I was only made to fall apart)
(I was only made to fall apart)
(I was only made to fall apart)