Exordium - Starting new Lyrics

Here i am
Got a lot to say
I got a lot on my mind
That wont go away
I gotta devil on my shoulders
But no angels are in sight
Cause everything i do
I built up high
To watch it fall back down
Fixed on the pain
I cannot change
And it tears my heart out
Stand and rise
Starting new
Stuck in the past
I don't know how to let go
I'm about to break
But my words will never show
How i'm struggling
Deep inside
Can i stand up and rise
Cause i'm falling
And i'm fading
I'm trying my best
But i'm suffocating
I know what i need to do
Just forget
Cause its time i started new
Tears are running like a waterfall
Blood is thick
And i've gone ice cold
I'm losing my mind
I've lost control
Can anybody hear me
Stand and rise
Starting new
Stuck in the past
I don't know how to let go
I'm about to break
But my words will never show
How i'm struggling
Deep inside
Can i stand up and rise
Cause i'm falling
And i'm fading
I'm trying my best
But i'm suffocating
I know what i need to do
Just forget
Cause its time i started new
I'm so sick of these f*cking voices
I need to let go
Blegh
Stand and rise
Starting new
Stuck in the past
I don't know how to let go
I'm about to break
But my words will never show
How i'm struggling
Deep inside
Can i stand up and rise
Cause i'm falling
And i'm fading
I'm trying my best
But i'm suffocating
I know what i need to do
Just forget
Cause its time i started new