F! cisco - IDK Lyrics

I remember when I was a kid and used to play
In the backyard till the sun would set
Running through the field, not a single care
Not a problem in sight, nor a broken heart Used to play with friends, now I play pretend
Swear sometimes I don't even know my name
Living in my head has a price to pay
Questioning myself, am I thinking straight? Beauty's in the eyes of the beholder
So I hold her really tight
You never know if it's the last time
But when she go away, I'm left alone with my reflection in the mirror
And the monsters come to play now
Cole said, no role models, and I guess that he was right, man
The more that you grow, the more that you realize that no one knows what they're doing
And that's comforting to know, but scary if you think about it in the long run
I don't really know if I'm gonna be okay
I don't really know how to make it through today
I don't really know what you want me to say
Look for better days, but it always feels the same
I'm not crying about it
I'm not trying to hide it
I could never deny, I'm afraid of the dark when it comes from my mind
My perspective is a Atlantis, I've been Milo trying to find it, but the deeper that I dive
The more shipwrecks that I find
Shit that's underneath my skin
I'm afraid to ask my dad, so I'd rather go online
Look for answers I can find
Cause the judgment that's in house cuts way deeper than it sounds
How can I grow up and shine?
When I'm rusty from them battle scars
Flowers blossom where I'm not
Should I run or should I hide from who I might come to be
If I don't get to correct the curse of this sinking ship
I don't really know if I'm gonna be okay
I don't really know how to make it through today
I don't really know what you want me to say
Look for better days, but it always feels the same
I'm not crying about it
I'm not trying to hide it
I could never deny, I'm afraid of the dark when it comes from my mind