The story of my life
I speak to you, no filtered characters to hide behind
All the f*cked up thoughts that rush in through my brain
Will I lose the voice that keeps me sane?
And will they see it?
I'm running blind here
And nothing seems clear
I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why
Why the hell am I alive and standing here?
Ashamed I am afraid that this all will be in vain
A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear
I can't help but feel this hopeless, vicious pit inside my gut
And it makes me question the decisions that I've made while growing up
I don't know now
Decisions I have made, have I f*cked up?
I don't know how
The future unfolds all I crave is hope
I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why
Why the hell am I alive and standing here?
Ashamed I am afraid that this all will be in vain
A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear
I can see it
It's in my sights
I just gotta reach it, pull it in before I go blind
It looks into me, dead in my eyes
And suddenly I notice I am terrified
I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why
Why the hell am I alive and standing here
I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why
Why the hell am I alive and standing here?
Ashamed I am afraid that this all will be in vain
A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear
I'm afraid I'll disappear