So I've been told
I think too much
And that's my fault
It slows things down
Brings them to a halt
Sometimes they say
You talk too much
Keep something inside
You don't have to tell
Everybody you know
Everything that's inside
When I was 13
Everything was a future dream
It'd be really hard to list
All of the things
That seemed obscene
But somethings are always true
Because they're facts you've seen
Alcohol in a flask
Ain't water in a canteen
Got to take care of your body
If you're feeling naughty
It's not something you fake
It's a decision you make
If it's an incision you need
I'll tell you one thing
You've got a doctor in me
You're all I need
But you won't see me tonight
I am afraid
And I just want
To hide
When I used to go outside
I wasn't fixin' to hide
I was mixin' in my lows
While I was riding my highs
But now I realize
That in my eyes
When things weren't great
It was easier for me to cope
And regulate
Instead of aggression
I was leaning on repression
With my hands in my pockets
And my secrets in some lockets
All the notes I wrote and passed
Weren't to crushes you see
They were just from the past
To future versions of me
You're all I need
It's me you won't see tonight
I don't feel fine
And I just want to die