Finnished - Choke Me On Amber Lyrics

I shut my mouth
Cause I know I know I know I know I know
It's too
Heavy to hold
I cough up my lungs
And I choke I choke I choke I choke I choke
On a word
That sounds like no
Well I can't love the things I hate
And everything gets in my way
And how I wish that I could say
Something that makes you feel okay
And now I'm under every weather
And I'm trying to get better
For a reason I've not thought of yet
There's blood in my mouth
How I bleed I bleed I bleed I bleed I bleed
To work
Something out
I'm down on my knees
And I pray I pray I pray I pray I pray
That the bruises
Won't go away
Well every article I read
Just makes it f*cking hard to breathe
And how I wish I could believe
In some great power over me
And I'm a magpie in disguise
But mum won't look me in the eye
I'm something she can't recognise
Oooo, I can't change
And every night and day and night and day
The seasons start to slip away
Oh, how I wish
That having wasn't happiness
You changed me, I'm the best of us
Flashing amber, I will never gleam
Hands around my throat will never leave
Everything is weak, not just my knees
And I've got no angel watching over me