manipulative monster Video (MV)

Probably shouldn't call again
Bad habits turn to problems
I guess it's just me
So unhealthy

Me and all my complications
That you liked to point out
I fuess it's just me
I can't fix me

Manipulative monster
A weak pathetic fighter
Is that who I am
Narcissist and selfish
No limits and no help
Could ever make me understand

I tried to pretend and lie to myself
That it wasn't over, that it wasn't hell
Just needed some space to make things all okay
But man was I wrong about everything

Shouldn't have said anything

Problem solved, guess I'm crazy
Learned bout myself in therapy
Guess it's just me
No one can help me

Thought I'd just take care of me but
I'm so selfish I'm a freak
Am I really?

Am I delusional and naive
Wish someone had taught me
But there was nobody
Oh there was nobody
To warn me

I tried to pretend and lie to myself
That it wasn't over, that it wasn't hell
Just needed some space to make things all okay
But man was I wrong about everything
I almost went crazy, went spiralling
Hand over my chest, I was barely breathing
How did things end up this way
Guess it's all my fault
Shouldn't have said anything

Shouldn't have felt anything

Thought we would go back
Forgive and forget
But real life isn't as simple as that
Thought it wasn't too much
Thought it wouldn't hurt this bad
Guess I was wrong all over again

Thought we would go back
Through thick and through thin
But real life isn't as easy as that
Thought we were enough
Thought we were better than that
But guess I was wrong all over again

Cause I tried to pretend and lie to myself
That it wasn't over, it wasn't hell
Just needed some space
Thought we would be okay