Forced Addiction - Getting to Sleep Lyrics

So tired of living a farce, under hopelessness
Impatiently waiting for my chance at satisfaction
When I'm all alone in a dark room
Ready to see you again, about to feel you again
Remembering all the times we had
Both the good and the troubled ones
I didn't know what to think when I met you
Should I try love again? Or should I walk away?

While falling asleep!
Your voice is all that I can hear
Calling me out for what could and should have been
As I'm trying to dream
I hold on to your memory
Serving as proof of what life has made of me
Getting to sleep

Why did you come into my life?
Was it a way to make me smile?
As a reason to not give in?
Or to taste what I'll never have?
3 am, my time is running out
And you are still nowhere to be found
My head says "get some rest"
But my heart screams "keep rotting for her!"

While falling asleep!
Your voice is all that I can hear
Calling me out for what could and should have been
As I'm trying to dream
I hold on to your memory
Serving as proof of what life has made of me
Getting to sleep

I, lie, saying you still think about me
Crying, denying, drinking while slowly dying
Screaming, your name, to a silent empty response
Without you I can't carry on, without your light I'm doomed to fall!
I can't love you anymore!
Harming! Myself! And no one demanding to stop!
Preying! Imploring! On hurting knees every night!
Longing! Hoping! That one day you would come back!
I'd rather die than to accept that I will never hold you again!

Bring back joy into my being
Fulfill my life-long desire
Take my hand and lead the way
Make me believe again
Kill the pain I carry
Wipe the tears and kiss me deeply
I don't want to wake back up
Please, grant me eternal sleep