Going through hell
Still got scores to settle with the devil on my shoulder older version of myself
Hit rewind to bring em back cause he ain't live to tell his tale
I get reminded of em when I try to think of you as well
I carry burdens no one knows about
Extra change hid in the couch
Gone so far I'm sitting down
Man it's hard to stand at all
Man it's hard to stand tall
Hard to stand tall when the audience don't call for me
Hard to sleep hard to say what I mean
Without my brain leaping in to make me say what I think
It's hard not to drink
I'm really trying but the odds go bout as far as it seems
I'm really tryna believe
In anything that ain't me
Define myself by a street
I held that funeral on penny
Lately feels like I'm dreaming when I decide to see into the past
It's lasted as long as the highs I'm after I mean
Talkin' 'bout the younger version of myself
When he thought he went through some Hell
There' is no way that he could tell
About what he'd soon see in mail
He always thought that he would fail
Like he was blind but couldn't read brail
He didn't know how to prevail
Lost in time to see the sale
Talkin' broke the glass
Couldn't fight urge to pass
Remember learned in class
Still seems to make a mess
I give them no amends
I regret nonetheless
This life is my whole test
I hope I do my best