G0yaa - its always been this way Lyrics

I don't want your shit that you shoved in my face
Leave me alone
Don't say my name
And let me move at my own pace
So id say
I think, I'm doing fine
Cause it's always been this way
They shove me down and kick me out
The more I say what I'm about
Cause
They argue this and they argue for that
Got my name in their mouth
Yet I never said theirs back
I start ignoring all their text
And avoiding all that's next
Can't believe she's trynna talk
After all those times she stalked like

I don't gotta a lot now
I just wanna talk now
Never learned to swim
So I got a reasons for my drowning
And my body stops on moving
Values aren't improving
And all tho I've never tried it
I think I wanna start using

Gonna drain my arms until their dry
So I don't gotta hear one more lie
Ill drink my guilt and swallow my pride
Am I really gonna be the reason that I die

I went back on my word like far too much
Fell in love from her touch
So I used her words as a crutch

I get these thoughts all in my mind
Sometimes I wish that I had died
Just tell my parents that I tried
Or id say

I think, I'm doing fine
Cause it's always been this way
They shove me down and kick me out
The more I say what I'm about
Cause
They argue this and they argue for that
Got my name in their mouth
Yet I never said theirs back
I start ignoring all their text
And avoiding all that's next
Can't believe she's trynna talk
After all those times she stalked like