Gabby Sophia - older all the time Lyrics

Trouble seems to follow where I go
I'm a hurricane
20 years, I've still got no control
And I can't escape
Is it too much to say I'm terrified?
I've got enough, and I try to be grateful
But I've been dying all my life
I'd rather stay young
I would stop if I was able
But I'm getting older all the time
I know I'm no saint, but I'm alright
So why is this so hard
I just hope I live a better life
And not be so on guard
I'm afraid of what comes next, I'm terrified
I've got enough, and I try to be grateful
But I've been dying all my life
I'd rather stay young
I would stop if I was able
But I'm getting older all the time
I'm laying in the street, my head heavy as concrete
I'm not proud of who I am, I'm a mindless skeleton
Taste of ashes in my mouth
I lit the fire, can't stomp it out
Could I reverse my injuries if I learned how to be nice to me
I've got enough
There's food here on the table
But I know you see a weakness in my eyes
I might self-destruct
I'm highly unstable
And all my fears have been magnified
I've got enough, and I try to be grateful
But I've been dying all my life
I'd rather stay young
I would stop if I was able
But I'm getting older all the time
I'd rather stay young
I'd stop if I was able
But I'm getting older all the time