Gabrielle Andres - Love Slayer Lyrics

Just got back from a date
It didn't end well
Shouldn't that surprise me?
Or drive me crazy?
It's like I'm used to it by now
Can't blame the other, For I'm the disappointer
A love slayer
A happiness slasher
God, I would make such a great villain
Here's an Oscar for that pain
But I wish I didn't have a f*cked up brain
'Cause I look for control in things that are wild
Butterflies are eating me alive
And I'm the one to f*ck up my life
Might as well pack my things
And die alone
Nobody deserves me
Well, the burden I carry
It's turned to a fact by now
Thought love would be like TV
Now it just stabs me
Right through the heart
Pick me apart
God, I play the victim so well
Here's an Oscar for that pain
But I wish I didn't have a f*cked up brain
'Cause I look for control in things that are wild
Butterflies are eating me alive
And I'm the one to f*ck up my life
Love will cure my f*cked up brain
Someone will love me the way I am
And the butterflies
Will feel like I'm alive