Ive been sitting here
For way too damn long
My brain feels numb
At the mindlessness consumed
As if I can
Help myself
To a means
To a better end
This is what
I want to
Be numbed to
Feelingless
I don't want
To feel this way
I don't want
To think these things
I just want
To feel nothing
Compared to
This misery
Nothing is
Far more preferred
I don't want
To feel this way