Gee $uade - Change Lyrics

From the jumpy jump
Turn the beat up
T, turn the beat up in my headphones
Look
How could anybody look at you and simply walk away
I've been trynna wrap my head around the fact that I'm to blame
But no matter what I do these things will never stay the same
I'm ashamed for feeling guilty that my worlds about to change
So when I wake up in the morning I'm feeling a bit distorted
I live most of my life like a track that's been pre-recorded
Even now there's still a couple of things that I've been getting sorted
But I'll always make the time for the things that are most important
To think that I am in control when all I wanna do is cry
How am I suppose to know if I'm even really alive
Through the winter I don't want to do a single thing but hide
Give me comfort to remove what has been killing me inside
So tell me does it make me selfish for wanting to take a dive
Nah It just makes me grateful for being able to strive
I'll never throw you aside
My love I can never hide
I'll bury my pride
For those little baby brown eyes
I'll be the best that I could be and even though I feel complete
It's really difficult for me but I promise l'll never leave
See I know how it feels to be alone and cause of what I've seen
I'd never wish that type of pain upon another human being
You can hate me all you want but I'm just trynna get the truth across
This is the most comfortable way that I can truly talk
So do not judge me when I tell you that I'm feeling lost
I'm just trynna gather all my thoughts and lock them in a box
Remember days when I was getting jumped and they would take my socks
Pick the homies up with bare feet be creeping down the block
Speech impediments I have a slight stutter when I talk
Doesn't help my situation when in trouble with the cops
Now that I have all this knowledge, I'm suppose to make some progress?
How I'm working on it but I still see nothing in my wallet
And with everything that's pilling up It make me want to vomit
Ima just being honest but I'll never leave and that a promise