Gee $uade - Distant (feat. Ron B) Lyrics

How can I express all the things that I feel
When it gets suppressed and they telling me chill
I am a mess and I can't even deal
This here depression is getting to real
I had invested my time enough
Into those who regret they done let me go
It ain't a question on how I was
Whatever you did and said is set in stone
Yea we could always forgive
Fair enough but we never forget
Deep inside yeah it hurt ever since
Why do I feel so worthless again
(Shit) The damage is done you won
You made me tap in the one I've become
All of these bandages sums it
How do I manage to still love how I love
It be so hard to stay mentally focused
Damn now I'm starting to picture and notice
Go through the motions I'm sick of emotions
Guess I got a heart that is meant to be in broken
Some situations aren't as easy to see
Sit you down wake you out the deepest sleep
Lay in my bed as I sit there and think
Somehow you gotta get up on your feet
Days without sleep and I'm barely eating
At anxiety's peak now I'm rarely speaking
Nothing prepared me for all of this pain
And no one is there to see it
I'm downing the bottle
While I'm drowning my sorrows
And I'm smoking alone
Im going full throttle
Will I make it tomorrow
Shit I don't even know
(Aye)
Look
I'm not the type to admit I'm wrong
I just like to write sad songs
Too headstrong
Then I start to wonder why
All my friends either dead or gone
It's not a problem though
Especially when I have over come all these obstacles
Ima let'em know
I hope I'm remembered for everything I've done
When it's my time to go
I'll work it out Bring back to the basics
All of the skeletons that be living in my basement
I could clean up but I cannot erase it
No matter what I do I gotta cover all my bases
What is the deal
I got one hand on the wheel
Other one holding the steel
I'll keep it real
Don't give a f*ck how you feel
Get up go get you a mil
You can run it up and decide if you wanna stay
Im gonna double it and then I'll give it away
Focus on the reason why I been trynna maintain
Yeah this shits gotta change I've been feeling real strange
No need to be looking for me you know I stay
You could find me buried on the East of the Veg
In a place where the sun don't shine and the clouds stay gray
And it's all fogged up cause it rains all day
You might think I'm not with shits
Ima empty out the full clip
Even when I'm out hanging with my kids
Cause that's when I'm the most dangerous
Now I'm Downing a bottle
And I'm drowning my sorrows
I'm smoking alone
Im going full throttle
Will I make it tomorrow
Shit I don't even know
(Whoa)