Gemini209 - Wonder Sometimes Lyrics

I try
To cleanse the mind
Lookin for somethn divine
Still wonder if I'm part of that vine
A powerful mind
But my l eyes blind
Blood that's wine
Flesh and bread I cry
Is this old life really left behind
I really wonder sometimes

I'm facin me
In the mirror I see
This flesh
Has depths
What A lesson to me
A image you keep
Is a image to delete
Inside I scream
From this really old me
Don't hold on
I think strong
Use to think wrong
Corrupt didn't give two f*cks
But I lead on
I trust God
But I fall a lot
You will never no
How this life will unfold
But I'm piecing it together with these nuts and bolts
I'm not walking alone
My wife is rider with me on this road
It's a lot and we know
But we fight on
Like Tyson
Is my mike on
These lyrics I punch
When my sights on
My grind I grind on
Like I'm tony hawk
But I stay on top
Of my game
But things change like night and day
Some times I isolate
Myself from people when I really need time away
I believe
I tend to think
When it's gets hard with anxiety
And hard to breathe
Something inside of me
Knows your right here with me

I try
To cleanse the mind
Lookin for somethn divine
Still wonder if I'm part of that vine
A powerful mind
But my l eyes blind
Blood that's wine
Flesh and bread I cry
Is this old life really left behind
I really wonder sometimes

Don't count me out
Cus I saddle up and I ride it out
My pride is out
Reputation has bounced
I give a dam what's announced
Im Out and about
I Paddle out
To the deep water
Where the sharks feed and sink teeth in otters
This what I teach my son and daughters
It's better to lead than follow
It's hard pill to swallow
But break my back
For my family that's facts
Ease to the drama
Behind my back they laugh
Family doesn't mean there's love
No matter what it's really pretty sad
This that bullshit I have
So I back off and I cut ties
You throw me under the bus and then act like
Everything's ok when Everything I've done is minimized
To myself I ask why
I'm scratching head respect
I'm positive theres nothing left
Pain in the chest
From relentless stress
Have to have eyes on the back of my head
And I look up
And i ask what
In gods creation is really up
What Is going on
How they think I'm wrong
Took care of them like they were dad and mom