broken record Video (MV)

How is fair that you've moved on so easily
When I still think you're just coming right back for me
Your hand in my hair, it sits on my back
And I get heartburn when I think about that

Now my skin doesn't fit right anymore
There's nausea in my throat and I just want to shed it all
Start a new life, find a new body
If I was skinnier would you have wanted me?

Cus I try to sleep at night
Then you get loud
I try to shut it out, then I remember you
Touching my leg, kissing my neck, reminding me of everything that I've never had
Now I can't sleep at night
Because you took it back

Now I'm missing you cus I won't see you tomorrow
I won't walk down those stairs and be heading right for you
I'll hide in my best friend's house
I think I'm a broken record now

Cus you changed something about me last week
And now we can't carry on being the friends that we used to be
Everything's changed and I just feel sick
I'm pinching my skin so I feel better than this

Cus I just can't sleep at night
With a pit in my chest
I dreamt that you chose me that night
Then I woke up
I'm not the first on the list, or even the second
I've fallen down on all of your female relationships
And I don't think we can go back from this

Close my eyes
I'm shutting the door
Imagining not living in America anymore
I'll probably never see you again
And you were so desperate just to remain friends
Weeks will go by and you won't reach out
You think you're being nice but I just want to shout

And I know you're not cruel but why lead me along
I know we were drunk but you said you felt this way for a while
Why will I never just be good enough for you?
You're too busy to hang out, I don't think you really want to

Now I can't sleep at night
Now I can't sleep at night
Now I can't sleep at night

If I was smaller would you have wanted me?