Ghost4514 - I'm Not Meant To Love Lyrics

You asked if I wanna dance, so I gave you a second chance
Then you said we should advance, put my mind inside a trance

Now you're breaking my heart slow, said I never even know
Once you and I get toe to toe, every night we tend to fight
Love was never in your sight, now I'm soaring like a kite
While I wake up in the night, yeah, I don't feel myself

Like my life was never mine, I think I crossed a f*cking line
Now you got me stuck entwined, yet you're telling me I'm fine
I don't think I'm fine, I don't think I'm meant to love
I got feelings at this rate, that I shouldn't even feel

I never let myself heal, when I'm sad I grip the wheel
Going a hundred in my lane, yeah, my emotions swelled up
Can I breathe about the days, that I loved you in my ways
Right before you stole my mind, girl I loved you all the time

Before I started writing rhymes, did you push me to this path
Did you want me to feel your wrath, while I'm drowning in the rain

Let me dumb it down, when you left me on the ground
I didn't stick around, I started writing music, that I say is therapeutic
Man, I'm f*cked up in the head, but I haven't told my friends
Cause they'll look the other way

Day by day, got a lot to say, but I chain it up in the attic
Yeah, my sister got too close, then I started acting erratic
Boarding up the room, hide the autotune in a separate room
Yeah, I'll never mask my voice, cause I'll never have the choice

Can I tell you a little secret
I hate my f*cking life, I hate my face, I hate my voice
I'll be gone someday, without a trace
Then you'll have a murder case, once my head's up in a vase

My body's in the waste, cause my ex just had a taste
And didn't like the f*cking feel, after feeding me some pills
Mom, yeah, I'm so f*cking sorry for the shit that I say
But I gotta keep it real to my grave