Ghost Ethos - To All The Women I Loved Lyrics

Feelings change
Memories begin to flood
Of who we used to be
But I'm entering a new age
Writing memoirs
Entries in my story that I misjudged
But I keep revisiting each old page
A message
To all the women I loved

I've been holding on to nothing
And you don't give a f*ck
Hardest part I'm learning is
That I'm not enough
Hatchets unearthed we meant to bury
It wasn't supposed to end like this
We were meant to last
Or so it felt after the first kiss
Fairy tale shit
But I'm no Prince Charming and you're no princess in distress
Olive branches engulfed in flames
No matter how far they stretch
I can't change you
And you can't save me from myself

Feelings change
Memories begin to flood
Of who we used to be
But I'm entering a new age
Writing memoirs
Entries in my story that I misjudged
But I keep revisiting each old page
A message
To all the women I loved

Our love was clouded with pain
Death was frequent as Seattle rain
I couldn't take it all away no matter how hard I tried
And that ring on your finger couldn't keep you with me
Especially after our little one passed
Dreams of a family went up in smoke
Shit still weighs heavy on me to this day
Even now after seeing how far you've come
Maybe I'm selfish, maybe I'm meant to pay
But I run from responsibility like the moon from the sun

Feelings change
Memories begin to flood
Of who we used to be
But I'm entering a new age
Writing memoirs
Entries in my story that I misjudged
But I keep revisiting each old page
A message
To all the women I loved

I think all the trauma knocked a screw loose
So I took a noose and hung myself on you
I was desperate for love and all you showed me was compassion
So I got addicted and tried to increase you in doses
Even though deep down I knew it was hopeless
Convinced myself our love wasn't precocious
Now I'm feeling atrocious
Having such a wide range of emotions

Feelings change
Memories begin to flood
Of who we used to be
But I'm entering a new age
Writing memoirs
Entries in my story that I misjudged
But I keep revisiting each old page
A message
To all the women I loved

When I met you, I wasn't looking for love
But what I had wasn't enough
Broken situations
Lead to new ambitions
But elsewhere your passion lies
Which is why I wrote Butterflies
About how no matter how hard I tried
They keep dying on the inside
For someone who doesn't have me in mind
Somewhere, I got lost along the way
In all the build up I created
But now it's time for me to go for real
I have to give you up

Yeah I'm a f*ck up
I can admit that now
I'm sorry
For everything I couldn't be
The man I wasn't ready to be
The happily ever after, I dreamed of giving you
Broken promises I couldn't deliver you
Yeah...
I guess, all I have left to say is
I'm sorry...
To all the women I loved....