Ghosts In Motion - Dead Beat Lyrics

Oh No!
I'm in my head again
Why won't these thoughts just f*cking end
I can't feel a thing
So numb from all the suffering

Hook:
What do you know about suicide shit?
When you're bipolar manic depressive
I want to just end my shit don't want to feel like this no!
Got to know this ain't no play when I look at my face everyday and
I want to just end my shit don't want to feel like this!

I never wanted to be this way
But life has never shown my purpose I am not the same
I question everything I've ever known
And every time I talk about it it makes me feel all alone F*ck!
Why do I feel so alone?
It's like my head is not my own

I don't know what will kill me first
The pills the bottle or the lack of sleep?
There's something inside controlling me
Something I cannot see

Too late this dark matter controlling me
It's in the air I breathe taking over!
I tried oh trust me I tried
I can't win this fight so f*cking take my life

I tried oh trust me I tried
To change my life to fix my mind