Gian Sendo - Been a Season Lyrics

Its been a season since she's called me
I still think about her every day
Life of distractions made to stall me
Cause I'm an addict to her deathly ways

Couldn't hold my end of the deal
Never showed her the real me
All I needed was some time to heal
But she wouldn't stay in hell for me

I'm glad the murder of my soul gave her joy
I'm used to never being the first choice
Its ok, I guess as long as she's all fine
Wish her the best but still wishing that she were mine

Its been a season since she's called me
I still think about her every day
Life of distractions made to stall me
Cause I'm an addict to her deathly ways

I'm manipulative no I'm just insane
I'm a piece of shit the cause of all her pain
If I could try again I'd fix up my mistakes
But she can't go back no
He don't deserve that

This is no way to live so maybe I won't
I'm exhausted but I can't sleep
Wo I'll just load the gun

Its been a season since she's called me
I still think about her every day
Life of distractions made to stall me
Cause i'm an addict to her deathly ways
Anything else?