Its a pity party when I'm pourin these potions
Mentally movin through all the motions
Tryna find a way to mute my emotions
So I stay steady increasin' my dosage
Sippin on bacardi n fixin what broken
She said to me that this shit is hopeless
So maybe if I die then my records go golden
But I'm not tryna ride a wave, I'm drownin in the ocean
See, where i go, I let, the spirits flow
I pour, until it don't, puffin smoke, until I'm broke
Is this how I waste away, Chemicals up in my brain
Burn the green, to shades of gray, to cope with things, i can't explain
I been broken for a while so i broke it down
Contemplating questions like why i smoke the pounds
There's E up in my adios so now I'm dipping out
Got me tripping out to simple visions, what the fuhh, how
Its a pity party when I'm pourin these potions
Mentally movin through all the motions
Tryna find a way to mute my emotions
So I stay steady increasin' my dosage
Sippin on bacardi n fixin what broken
She said to me that this shit is hopeless
So maybe if I die then my records go golden
But I'm not tryna ride a wave, I'm drownin in the ocean
Wonderin whats this worth
I'm so sick of takin turns
Lifes got ways to make us learn
So lets just sit, and watch it burn
Oh so deep in the depths I stare
So damn done, its so hard to care
7 years old, learned life aint fair
Got no f*cks to give, aint got no spares
I been too busy lookin back, searchin for a little slack,
Where's the worth inside a verse if it's not lit within track
Can I be the next one poppin off if I dont got a face with tats
I just gotta get my team up on f*ckin' the map, but
Its a pity party when I'm pourin these potions
Mentally movin through all the motions
Tryna find a way to mute my emotions
So I stay steady increasin' my dosage
Sippin on bacardi n fixin what broken
She said to me that this shit is hopeless
So maybe if I die then my records go golden
But I'm not tryna ride a wave, I'm drownin in the ocean
Its a pity party when I'm pourin these potions
Mentally movin through all the motions
Tryna find a way to mute my emotions
So I stay steady increasin' my dosage
Sippin on bacardi n fixin what broken
She said to me that this shit is hopeless
So maybe if I die then my records go golden
But I'm not tryna ride a wave, I'm drownin in the ocean