Gillespie - Lesser of Two Lyrics

Yeah, yeah, sermons
Sometimes in this life you can only survive
Pick the lesser of two, even if you confused
Even deep as it hurts, I face affliction from pain
I been loving in vain, I got a long ass list of the f*cks i done gave
Bout these thots that I chose, I know that they played a role
And now I'm back here, looking back I reminisce on jazmine cashmere
With that fat ass wonder if she had class
Ratchet hoes ain't half bad, Ya know?
With hindsight present, shoulda stopped at the throat
Cause I wasted time and I was just fine and I would be better had I left alone
I hate when she gone, Ya know?
I could f*ck hoes any time that I want
For some odd reason my hope won't just go
The lesser of two, is leave and be through
My shifted emotions mean feelings get bruised
You've been neglected Be careful and choose
Ya know?, Ya know?, This is pure seduction, mind riddling
Snorting Ritalin, my candy cooked apocalypse is more than dope fades
Needless to say abusers, needle pushing
Promethazine, Never felt love in the core of their meddling
A mosh pit massacre, A deadly renegade with ambitions to be paid
I'm impartial to legality, My mind frames duality
Ya know?, Ya know?, I'm just a tortured poet
Cast aside by our society, a long fall down be the breaker of Sobriety
I'm spiraling, out of touch and out of mind
Attempts fall short and leave gasps
I tried to kick and push just to shift the hour glass
I'm guessing The allure of it all, is losing all its luster
Cause when you speak to me I'm just a dirty motherf*cker
I know I broke some promises, was only chasing confidence
It all worked out by the list of my accomplishments
Ya know?, Ya know?, You know it