Heavy Video (MV)

I spend more time in the shower now to spend less time in tears
And it don't help to know that I could go much lower from here
Not sure how much I can take at this point I guess we'll find out
I'd take back last week in a heartbeat before I figured out
Somethings are too heavy to put down
Too heavy so I carry them around
And I tell them what they wanna hear
I'll be fine there is nothing to fear
Fake a smile and I can tell that we
Ignore I'm lying to myself
Here
Oh the less that I talk the more I'm feeling alone
It's not a secret for some reason though I can't let them know
And the days kinda blur 'cause all I can do is wait
So now I'm staying inside reading novels to escape
And I tell them what they wanna hear
I'll be fine there is nothing to fear
Fake a smile and I can tell that we
Ignore I'm lying to myself here
And I tell them what they wanna hear
I'll be fine there is nothing to fear
Fake a smile and I can tell that we
Ignore I'm lying to myself
Here
Would you care if I told you that I was lying
Mmm...
I'm shit scared and sad am I that good at hiding
Well I guess I'll stick to writing
And just tell them what they wanna hear
I'll be fine there is nothing to fear
Fake a smile and I can tell that we
Ignore I'm lying to myself
(And I tell them)
I keep lying to myself
(I'll be fine and)
Ignore I'm lying to myself
(Fake a smile and)
Lying to myself
(Keep on lying)
I just keep lying to myself here