[ Featuring Nathanael Moynihan ]
Still searching
Still learning
I'm still in church waiting for that one
Special sermon
I'm still at home, glued to my phone, that dusty books in my peripheral, and I'd rather move on
From residual effects
Of individuals that left
Marks in my head cause they formed who I am but it's not who I am and I cant stand it
Coming to terms with the fact that I'm just a man
I tried to think outside the box but I'm not sure if I can
So I'm still searching
Yeah I'm still learning
Stubborn in my solitude but wish I had a person
Im really jealous of all you who just seem to know your purpose cause I feel like I deserve it
Maybe not but if I did I swear I'd serve it
Guess I'm still serving my time, I've failed to answer these questions to fill the holes of my mind
Temptation said that I should lay down and die but I stared that snake in her elliptical eyes and I said that
I'm still searching
Yeah I'm still learning
I'm doing my best to try and accept that it's a journey
Asking God for less and trying to be more discerning but it's such a burden and my body's been burning
Not even sure what I need, just something I can see, not their favorite verses that they told me to read, not them telling me I need to believe in 3:16 and sing the songs that they sing is there a problem with me if
I'm still searching
Or admit that I'm still learning
I feel I must go on despite prevailing warnings
Opening my eyes starts with closing em first
No disguise, take off the mask, it's time to show my worst
Uh my true emotions, and the tension of thinking inside out while I'm making raps about thoughts I had under wraps of my homemade clout
Look it's ok if they don't clap now, cause I don't need it
Used to live for the crowd but don't I plan to repeat it
Don't plan to repeat it
Modern Pharisees that cant see strength in my weakness
Disregard my heart cause theirs are hard and so damn conceited
You're full of shit man take it with you
Cause I don't need it