Acedia Video (MV)

Oh I must be lost
Somebody tell me what a map costs
Pockets full of rain cus there ain't no change
Just hand me over to the Jack Frost
Things ain't the same since I started trying
Ain't feel pain if I submit to dying
Anybody wanna hang in this noose I'm tying?
Cos my brain keeps frying
Telling myself there's no more lying
Memory declining
Lost in a fog when I'm reclining
Self undermining
Excuse myself with the perfect timing
Living just abiding
Like f*ck the cogs and the endless miming
So what shall I do with myself?
I got weed I got booze don't ask how I felt
Nothing to lose but my physical health
Don't make me choose I don't care about wealth
Sickly inhibitions make me slippery
Don't feed don't breed
Being clean by me means don't breath
Ain't ever wanna hear it so I lip read
Ain't ever gonna clear it won't succeed
This shit is still tryna steal me
Might take a dive off a steel beam
Nothing on my mind but concrete
Wanna buy my time? It's filthy
F*cked by my grind to feel free
F*cked up my shine but you'll see
Il see the f*cking light if it kills me
Oh shit oh f*ck I think I lost myself again
I'm never gonna touch a bottle or bud again
Never will I drag another down to my end
By myself I'll be my own and kill my new best friend
Oh shit oh f*ck I think I lost myself again
I'm never gonna touch a bottle or bud again
Never will I drag another down to my end
By myself I'll be my own and kill my new best friend