Gocks Da Rapper - Painted Fake Smiles Lyrics

I know it's weird, to say this out loud
To say that I'm sad
Depressed
And mentally f*cked up
It's hard to maintain a peace of mind
At the same time trying to explain what comes to my mind
But nobody understands
Nobody gives a f*ck
You what?
Depressed?
Black man don't face that
Be strong!!
Be a man!!
That's what they said
They couldn't even see that deep down I was sad
I wanted to kill myself
I wanted this pain to end
I couldn't even wait for God
To play his hand
They say it's a sin to kill yourself
So I rather kill myself then go to hell than to continue living this life entlek
Let me tell you nga vhutshilo hanga
Vhutshilo hovhunoni vhu a vhavha
I can't take this shit no more
Nṋe a thi tsha nyaga
I can't take this shit no more
Bye-bye mme anga
I can't take this shit no more
Mara asi zwine nda amba
Because society has trained to walk around like everything is fine
To walk around with make up on our face
Of our painted fake smiles
G.O.