Here
We
Go
Picture this
1991 the year it is
The lighting in the room is very dim
Doctor walking in it's time to go
Mom is screaming she's in pain again!
Here I am I finally have arrived
Dad is filling up with so much pride
My best friends mom is by her side
Because it's in our blood that we are down to ride
Yeah
May 1st, I was born into the world
Mamma didn't know I had the music in my soul
Not a single person in my family is musical
I gotta be real for a second with you
I had already gone through so much at the age of 2
6 months old and my parents got the worse news
Cancer!
They had no idea what to do!
Mass confusion
Blood transfusions
Staying up late
Try to think of a solution
Had to be a lot of stress I know,
They divorced and now I'll never know (Sad)
My doctor discovered that something was wrong
It turns out your boy wasn't dying for long
A misdiagnosis that marked the beginning of a bad dream, man I wanna go home.
I didn't have cancer a sigh of relief
If that's not the case, then what's wrong with me?
All of the blood in my body was low
Don't wanna mention the size of my spleen
I had to see a new doctor and then it went further with doing a whole lot of tests
Then we find out that my problems are only beginning I guess let me start with my chest
I had a murmur inside of my heart
And I hate to say that it's not the worst part
Eventually as I grew older I learned my esophagus wasn't too great from the start
I had a condition that closed up my throat for no reason at all
And ladies and gentlemen this is the start of the fall
Yeah
Picture this
A baby lifeless
In a room of white filled with silence
Seeing just the black inside my eyelids
Doctors stand around me sterilizing
All the tools they use to poke with violence
I remember in the older stages of my life at times of these operations
That I would hold my dads hand, just so I could feel safe, till I felt sedation
As a little kid, I had to experience terrible things that you couldn't imagine
Stuck with a needle was something that I didn't feel anymore you could say I adapted
Tube in my throat while I'm strapped to a table and sometimes I would wake up gasping
Whoa
Yeah right in the middle I'm on anesthesia and somehow awake
And then like a reflex I'm trying to swallow and realize I can't so I twitch and I shake
Thankfully finally somebody realizes I am awake so I'm put back to sleep
Then I wake up in an hour or so with no recollection that it happened to me
My head was so heavy I couldn't control anymore and I threw up so violently all on the floor
Oh what a mess, this isn't FAIR!
I'm only 2 and I live in despair
Living inside of a hospital isn't a life that a kid wants to have.
I wanted so badly to be just a regular kid but that's something that I never had.
In 28 years I've experienced things that a person will go through in all of their life.
That never stopped me from being a kid with the courage and power to stand up and fight.
I made it this far got a long way to go
I'll keep on fighting you already know
You have now entered the mind of a person with nothing to lose now I'm ready to go