Woke up today and I forgot to take my medicine
Blowing trees and then taking antidepressants
Cause they both make me feel good, but not when blended
My brain don't know if the chemicals can work well together
Feeling there's a ping pong ball inside my forehead,
Going left to right from one ear to the other
I can only relate to music who talk about the friendship
Cause I feel like they're telling me to stay present
Even though I don't know them yet
But one day I will shake hands and thank them
Climbing hills, same height as Lauryn
And I will be a star if I'm being Sirius
Change of topic, I'm in love for the first time
23 and I'm getting all these feelings
I wanna cry thinking you don't even love me
Comparing myself with every girl wishing I was different
Cause I don't know if you like all this thickness
I don't know if I scare you with my feelings
I don't know if you being honest with me
When you say you don't wanna fall in love
Cause you might be leaving
Typical man, closing and restricting
Instead of being true and letting life take you with me
I ain't asking you to be my boyfriend
I'm just asking you to treat me like I am your best friend
I guess I can't force you to change
It sucks that you're stuck in the back of my brain
I never wanted to write about these things
Cause since I was little all I known was pain
I wanted to talk about f*cking anxiety
About how they keep killing all my sisters
I don't give a f*ck about being politic
Free Palestine and stop all genocide, you bitches
I hate to go against my own values
Sitting in el chino with my homeless and my gipsies
Laughing while we drinking, crying while we thinking
Another friend in prison cause the streets do be snitching
I have gone through more than one addiction
Hurting myself, living lines
I think they're dripping
Blood on my pants
And I don't care enough
Go ahead and ask
Cause I don't give a f*ck
I hurt myself as a way to punish me
And the blame can't go way beyond me
Forgive me father for I don't know what I do
I'm saying this and praying with the hands I use for drugs
Blowing trees even though they make me dizzy
Another pill, thank you doctor for the medicine
Mama crying cause she do believe in me
And she's waiting for the day that I make it
Blowing trees even though they make me dizzy
Another pill, thank you doctor for the medicine
My mama crying cause she do believe in me
And she's waiting for the day that I make it
I promise mama not just for you but for me
God gave me something that I feel is incomplete
Now it's time for me to fill up all the spaces
Work hard, try hard, never giving up, huh
Too much pressure I become my worst enemy
I wonder if I'm doing this on purpose
Cause, something wrong, my brain changes direction
Something right, my brain loses connection
It's the fact that I keep facing but the fear stays behind me
Cause I don't have the guts to turn around and fight it
If it's in front of me I do do do get violent
Insult me, punch me, tell me that I'm worth nothing
Therapy be working but I'm getting tired
Born a pessimist cause honestly I think I'm dying
Better than ever but never better than always
High hopes, higher dreams but you know what gets me higher
A la mierda eso de tratarme con pena
A partir de ahora cariño y muchas cosas buenas
Llego donde quiera porque si no compito voy primera
Confío en mi intuición, lo hago a mi manera
Aunque en el fondo duela yo sé que lo malo tienta
Por eso caigo bajo cada vez que agarro el faso
Ni una gota más que baje por mi cuerpo
Que al dia siguiente me deje tirada por el suelo
A partir de ahora mis gotas serán lágrimas
Las únicas que caigan e hidraten mis palmas
Pero antes de seguir hacia adelante
Toca recordar que este camino no va a ser fácil
Inhalo humo, no escucho ni lo que dices
Otra pastilla pues pa' calmar las penas
Mami no llores que te escribo este poema
Y te juro que superar esta mierda
Inhalo humo, no escucho ni lo que dices
Otra pastilla pues pa' calmar las penas
Mami no llores que te escribo este poema
Y te juro que superar esta mierda
Mami no llore' que se me hinchan las venas
Mami te escribo el poema
I promise.