Good Boy Cheerleader - Cowgirl (Christine) Lyrics

Cowgirl, I was the horse you were built to break
I know it's sad for me to think that way
Cowgirl, I was screwed the moment I met you
There are many things I should have said
When you were new material
When I hoped you just might have expanded in my bed
And pulled me into the world
But from your heart there rang bells of pain
Instead of listening, I had the nerve to complain
I loved you more than myself at best
But was it really love
Or a desire to possess?
I only wanted to be with you
I never meant to inflict abuse
New material, when we were sixteen
You said vanilla sugar was your favourite scent
So I wrote a song for you
Lied and said it meant nothing
Despite "Ryan, I've never seen this side of you"
A baring of emotion
Yet I chained fear to my ankle, sank into the sea
And for the next ten years
I felt my spirit atrophy
I only wanted to be with you
I never meant to inflict abuse
Christine
Thank you for being a loyal friend
You made me smile, you made me sing
I cherish those art class days
Me, ignoring the lesson
You, describing your depression
Our legs pressed together, huddled in intimacy
Christine, you meant so much to me
But my love bordered on obsession
For your beauty inspired
A brilliance of colour
I had never seen before
Colour I feared I'd never see again
Christine, I'm sorry
I'm sorry for being a shit friend
I spread shadows behind your back
Bitterness consumed me
And you sought the arms of another
So I sought to destroy you
Karma gives as karma takes
And I have felt my actions
I'm so sorry
I only wanted to be with you
I never meant to inflict abuse