Goodbye Academy - expect the unexpected ... BUT WAIT! Wouldn't that make it The Expected?! Lyrics

I don't really know what to do with my life
But that's alright
I'll figure it out

And maybe if I told you that I loved you more
In hindsight
I wouldn't be blindsided
You didn't stick around

Cuz I've got a funny way
Of putting up expectations
I could never follow through with
And maybe that's the reason you were through with me

But I promise I'm just lonely
And I could easily console the
Thoughts that I'm not good enough
If I really wanted to, but

I'm not exactly what you wanted me to seem like
And I thought it would be alright
But I guess that's what I get for trying
I'm not exactly what you wanted me to seem like
Even though I don't wanna be like that
I guess I'm just trying to say

To say, to say, to say

I don't really know what to do with your life
And I'm not trying
To figure it out

It's not like I don't care about your problems
But I'm
Not in the right mindset
To help

Cuz I've got a funny way of having too many problems
And not knowing how to solve them
And that's the reason that all of my fights

Tend to be so lonely
When there's no one to console me
I could count on one hand the times I've been nice to myself

I'm not exactly what you wanted me to seem like
Even I thought it would be alright
But I guess that's what I get for trying
I'm not exactly what you wanted me to seem like
Even though I don't wanna be like that
I guess I'm just trying to say

That I'm not really okay

Tell me I'm okay
That's what I wanna hear
And if I ever say
Something nice to myself this year
I'll call that a win