Soul Cry Video (MV)

Every night, i'd count my
Blessings
I had fallen from the skies like lucifer it taught me lessons
I had really seen it all and Everyday im recollecting
Like how tf i end up here? and How did i become so reckless

I had lost so much love in the Past year
And sadly i must live with that
So many people said they love And respect the way i feel
But When im hurtin for some Reason they look past that
I tried to heal when i need healing
I kneeled to all my villians just To prove that im defeated and was laughed at
I even told a girl a love her When i shouldve keeped my Distance its another man
She Want and ian plan that
Yes suicide been on my mind
And my eyes just steady cried
Cus every night i just was up Because of flashbacks
Another demon after demon
And none of them defeated
Lost my mind it wont no way That i could fight them back

So don't you question how i act
And don't question why i snap
If you aint ever step a foot inside My shoes nigga
I lost everyone and everything Yhat wouldve kept me happy
I Dont know what other shit that I could lose nigga
I had to wipe my tears myself You niggas say yall hurtin
But i Watch and dawg yo life a f*ckin Cruise nigga
I get high until dreaming and sip henny till im leaning
The only Way to cope with pain is if im Snoozing nigga

They dont like that i dont rap About the nineties
Or rap about some love
Cus nowadays my life aint fun
And sometimes i need a hug
So when i chose to be a ghost
I pray that yall dont hit me up
Cus now i turned my feelings off
Nowadays i give no f*cks

Im in my phone deleting people Out my life
It aint worth to have a wife cus Nowadays these girls aint right

They blame you for the actions That they ex did
Im tryna love you and you still Liking yo ex shit
And After quoia idk about a Next chick
Seems like every girl i want is on They ex dick
Im tryna chill girl not f*ck you To some netflix
And if yo mind aint even right Im on the next bitch
My nigga Quan told me to Preach so ima talk my shit
In my bag bro i dont care about That extra shit
You see a crowd and i promise Ian next to it
I had to step into the void so ian stressin shit. nigga

So many people claimed they ride
But when its time they just divide
I fought a lot of wars alone wont Nobody on my side
And even tho i chose smile its a Lot of pain inside
And yea i know that im not Perfect but shit i really tried

I lost this light in my soul
But happiness is my goal
Just give me a lot of that money
I promise ima go ghost
I never cared about fame
Thats why i private my post
They ask me how you a rapper if We cant comment on post

I got this pain inside heart
I wanna restart
And leave some people in the past
And just give me a new start
And how you claim you my Nigga but steady wishing i drop
I know my days gettin shorter i Keep an eye on that clock

I just dont know uh
Yea my vision gettin blurred im Moving slow
And everywhere i go i see a crow
And yea i know that ion want My life nomore
But ima thug it until im dead haan