Grant Howard - Hold My Nuts Lyrics

I been drinking way too much
The devil wanna take a clutch
Just tell him he can hold my nuts
Because I know it ain't gon' go that easy
And it feels eerie
Because I'm okay
For the long run
And I spent four days
All up in my head
Wind up in my bed
With no recollection
Of what happened last night
Down on my luck
I've been right here before
I went searching in myself
And found out that I needed more
And I know everything happens for a reason
But I need a meaning to let go of my freedom
I don't wanna think about the shit I should've had
Nothing's really good, but nothing's really bad
I ain't tryna hold my breath
If I don't really know what's next
I'm paranoid, these pills been pressed
But if I die, I go with all my friends
Well what's the meaning of money, happiness, evil
I've lost it all and I need a sequel
I need to stop, then I hit a breakthrough
I think too much, but I'm just disgraced, uh
Get lost in a place that doesn't exist
It's my time to go, but they all insist
That I play the part and I can't resist
So I lose it all, then I reminisce
What does that mean,
She turned 18
And had some big dreams, to hit a big scene
Then she turned 25, got that look up in her eyes
Gazing from the left to right, what's she doing with her life
Down on my luck
I've been right here before
I went searching in myself
And found out that I needed more
And I know everything happens for a reason
But I need a meaning to let go of my freedom
I don't wanna think about the shit I should've had
Nothing's really good, but nothing's really bad