nightmares Video (MV)

It gets so dark inside, I'd do anything just to ease my mind, put my pride to the side, when you look me in the eyes, I get nightmares of you with those other guys, I can't be laying down with anybody now, I see that you're all at those parties, enraged with myself for blowing that fuse, still got your picture up in my room, try to bring back good memories
But you play it all off like they never ever happened, look down at that bottle that I should've stuck the cap in, but I was battling all these issues
Yeah, I was working through going to therapy for you, that was something worth doing since you left me, sadness is all I'm viewing girl, I'm so sorry
I keep pushing away those that I love the most, nah, I gotta live with your ghost, the past conditions me, tells me I'm not worthy, yeah, it applies to surgery

Happiness or love, I can't ever attain, nah, but yours still remains, lecture me, told me one day that I could change, I wanna go back to those days, say go ahead, yeah, drink it all off this time
I don't care the cost, talk to these voices in my head, got me thinking twice, can't afford to lose you out of my life, I wish I could be myself, but emotions make me somebody else
Keep trying to control these things in the end, it's got a hold on me
It gets so dark inside, I'd do anything just to ease my mind, put my pride to the side, when you look me in the eyes, I get nightmares of you with those other guys, I can't be laying down with anybody now

I see that you're all at those parties, enraged with myself for blowing that fuse, still got your picture up in my room, try to bring back good memories, but you play it all off like they never ever happened, look down at that bottle that I should've stuck the cap in, but I was battling