The anxiety keeps me awake
Insecurity calls my name
Pressure builds and blocks my airways
The colours slowly fade to gray
I walk alone
All this weight that I feel in my chest is all my own
It comes and goes
The expectations I set for myself are all but low
Disappointment weighing down on me
I just can't let it go, I know who I want to be
I might not like it, but I need it
Cause I know I can be better than this
I'm just trying to move forward
I'm hoping to forget all of my mistakes that led me here
How am I supposed to learn to forgive
I'm fighting hard as I can to keep my head above ground
I did it before, why can't I do it now
I can't go back to that hole, that darkness ever again
I'm f*cking terrified, how can I live like this
I can be better, just give me a chance
I will be better, I will be better than this