Panic comes in droves and circles 'round the carrion
Memories that fester in the background
Suffocate on words I should have spoken
Sadness turns to rage
I am broken
An emotional wreck
Trying hard to forget
Medicate
(Try to stop the feelings)
Of self hate
(It doesn't help)
Manic self-defending tactics
Lashing out at everyone
Feelings buried by suppression
Bleeding through this self expression
Pills that used to work now leave me
Shouting too much information
Always just a phase living with this bipolar depression
An emotional wreck
Trying hard to forget
Medicate
(Try to stop the feelings)
Of self hate
(It doesn't help.)
Wish I had a batter way to cope with being alive
Wish I hadn't thrown away so many years of my life
Wish I didnt always feel like screaming "I don't wanna die
(I sometimes wish I'd never) been born at all"