Grossegrime - Haylage Spire Lyrics

I'm growing up and I hate it so much
I have not felt real since I turned twenty-one
Nothing feels fun but I'll try anything once I've lost all faith in the place that I'm from
Aren't you ashamed to say that I'm your son?
I spent every day in your house just rolling up
I'd steal your pills and stay up getting drunk Now I'll spend the rest of my life being dumb

Oh God, what a horrible person I was
I pushed away all the people that I loved
I'll spend the rest of my life throwing up
And filled with disgust for all the things I've done

I want to burn it all down just because Starting over just to end up right back where I was
Nothing I do ever has a probable cause
I just can't cope with all my flaws and my flaws

Oh God, what a horrible person I was
I'll always feel some guilt for the things that I've done
This shame I carry weighs more than a ton Sometimes the only way out is giving up
Oh God, what a terrible notion that was
I'm afraid of the place this is coming from
Sometimes I feel like I made it all up
I think it hurts way more than it actually does

It's too high and it's only getting higher
I'm stuck in this haylage spire
It's too high and it's only getting higher
I'm stuck in this haylage spire
It's too high and it's only getting higher
I'm stuck in this haylage spire
It's too high and it's only getting higher
I'm stuck in this haylage spire

Sometimes I feel like I made it all up
I think it hurts way more than it actually does