guiltykeyboard - Lonely In A Full Room Lyrics

I don't remember my dad, he left when I was small
An empty space in my heart, never filled at all
Never knew his voice, never felt his touch
He walked away like I wasn't worth much
And I wonder, was it me?
Was I too hard to love, too hard to see?
Every night I close my eyes and pray
For someone who'd want to stay
Feeling like nobody wanted me
A shadow in the room, just a memory
Mama said"Get out, don't call for a month"
Left me here feeling like I'm never enough
And even with love from my grandparents' hands
There's a loneliness that no one understands
Still feeling like nobody wanted me
Lost in a crowd, but so empty
Mama shut the door, said she needed time
Left me on my own, wondering if I'm worth the climb
Grandparents took me in, gave me a place to rest
But there's a hole in my heart that won't let me forget
And I wonder, why do I feel this way?
In a house full of love, but so far away
Their arms are open, but my heart is closed
Holding onto the pain I've always known
Though they try to show that I'm enough
And fill me up with all their love
Mama turned away, sent me far from her sight
Now I'm searching for some peace in the night
Grateful for the home that they gave to me
But there's a part of me that's still not free
Still feeling like nobody wanted me
A lost soul, just trying to breathe
I'll rise from the darkness, find my own way
Learn to love myself in a brand new day
But the shadows linger, they hold on tight
I fight them back with all my might
Still feeling like nobody wanted me
Even with their love, I'm struggling to see
Mama turned away, but I'm trying to heal
To learn what it means to be real
Grateful for the hands that hold me close
But there's a side of me that nobody knows
Still feeling like nobody wanted me
Lonely in a full room, just trying to believe
I'm trying to find the strength inside
To face the pain I've tried to hide
And though I'm surrounded, I still feel alone
Searching for a place I can call my own
No more feeling like I'm not enough
I'm here, I'm fighting, I'll find my love.