G.Umfvnk - The Bull King Lyrics

Do you like it babe?
How I want to talk hardly
Someone say some grace for the soon to be departed
Hardest thing I've done and I just was getting started
Guess it's true that some people just meant to be forgotten
Yesterday I woke up
Ok fine I was still awake needed no alarm
Took the Louis off my arm
Cuz honestly I don't know who the f*ck Louis is
And if I were to try and recollect any of the times I've been inside those types of stores
I Couldn't tell you where the cash register was
Should I be worried
Should I tell no one
That this shit ain't art
I just sell drugs
I've been fooling myself
Make them think I got funds
Feeling nervous a bit
Should I just bite my tongue
Where's the part where this stops
So it can be blamed on being young
I ain't done shit my whole life can't even attempt my pr
Bond has me waiting till they find me again i know it's not that hard
Going crazy not knowing what to do til they pick me up in that car
Picking up cigarettes just a fiend for that tar
Remember when I was a kid collecting them in a jar
To show em to my dad so he'd stop polluting the yard
Never showed him though
Such a missing role in my life but know my actions helped make all these scars
But shit at least that mother f*cker could hold down a job
Pay the rent and stay devoted enough to take care of my mom
While I be in and out of consciousness dodging the law
Hoping I don't have to face decisions that ill still go and make tomorrow
And the next day
And the day after that
Poured out the love so I could embrace the sorrow
Feels the same as empty might as well just be hollow
Might as well be hollow
Might as well be hollow
Momma I've been in and out of court rooms
And honestly I'm tripping
But one thing I can't do is turn around and start snitching
Another thing I can't do is live no different
Or f*cking listen
Or change this distance
This pains each instance
F*ck this shit hurts
With how every song was such hard f*cking work
There I was
Fighting the world
Fighting my girl
Fighting this needle
My thoughts keep running this shit evil
But they already told me it was
But like I said mom this shit has me tripping
I sit around constant bitchin
The girl I love steady drifting
We don't make love no more
Its my fault I feel so inadequate from all that im listing
At least I used to make her laugh but who the f*ck was i kidding
Guess G.umFVNK was the joke
There's something in my brain missing
Not looking for pity
Not really looking for anything
These are just my thoughts
And how my life's progressed
Not really much progress
Not seen too much success
Just incessantly stress
I wish I sent more texts
I wish I stopped wishing for more and realize that im already blessed
And just acknowledge at the very least I gave this shit my best
Easier said than done though
My minds such a f*cking mess
If I die today I'm sorry
If I die tomorrow I'm sorry too
If I die on the third day just know I thought it through
And I just want to stop thinking if only you all knew
Can't believe I'm saying this but I think I might be through
With All of this chasing
Please don't call while I'm pacing
Hope to see you again before they bust down my door and I'm taken
Love you Momma