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My body was his favourite record, so he'd spin it all the time
He didn't care when it started to skip
I got older before I was meant to and I taught myself how to lie
Can't remember when it became the truth
Cause fourteen is way too young to fall in love with your abuser
And yet I'm not the only one
Tried to sing him any other song but he didn't like the tune
So I scratched and I cracked and I smiled at the doom
But if I could go back now, I'd take my damn record off the shelf
Cause he broke my seal, before I even knew how to ask for help
I'm so sorry, I couldn't save you
And right now he's probably working as a cashier at our grocery store
He's greeting the people that I grew up with
And I wonder how many records have made their way through his hands
And I wonder if they still sound the same
And I'd scream you down to hell if I could muster up the courage
To ever stare into your eyes again
Cause I lost a little more of me every time you put the needle down
Do you even remember playing my track?
But if I could go back now, I would take my damn record off the shelf
Cause he stole my innocence and somehow I'm the one who feels at fault
And if I could go back now, I would take my f*cking record off the shelf
And you cut so deep, that I'm afraid they'll think I made you up
I'm so tired, I f*cking hate you
I f*cking hate you