Story time back when I was a kid
Yeah, I was a kid
Marks on the pavement from my skid
Knees are the only place where I bled
Going home to mommy where I was fed
Tucked in comfortably in my bed
Nothing but happy thoughts in my head while my mom said
"Sweet dreams, Troy"
Damn, it's already morning?
Mom, I don't wanna go to school it is very boring
Every time the teacher talks I begin the snoring
How do I apply myself to something I'm ignoring?
Troy, it is just something that you gotta do
Find ways to face adversity and push through
Every thought in my brain thought that is untrue
Nothing but a stubborn kid thinking that he had a clue
Man, I was wrong wasn't I?
To think back then I was never gonna get by
Final days of waking to a blue sky
And I'm gonna pout while the world sings me my final lullaby?
Those were the days when I was fine
When I never had a worry in sight
When I was with my friends playing outside
Before we all split and we met out divide
Yeah, something dark I face everyday
There is no escaping in a way you may think of this as Child's Play
Even as a man to this day haunting me in a way
Like I'm walking down a dark hallway
Because nowadays I walk around with my head down hoping that it's only a phase
Craving those days back, fearless of flames
Invincible to all the cure was imagination, sunshine, and rain
For us to play under
Even picked out a flower for my mom because man I do love her
Bring back those glory days
I must be dreaming, I'm sleeping
Wait, but am I dreaming?
Damn, it's already morning?
Wait, no, it's already half passed noon!
Get yourself out of bed
Tie your shoes, I'm confused
Gotta find a way to get motivated
Every way is overrated
Mind is overloading
Pop go the negative thoughts in my head
Face turns red
Plus the popcorns better with the butter
But it doesn't matter
That's an unhealthy way to cope
Now isn't it?
I like to stay away from everybody
Everybody thinking I'm such a bad guy
But, why?
Y'all are the reason I reverted to introverted
Flip them the bird
Y'all don't get a third of my time
It's my watch on my wrist
It's my time
Today's world you can't talk without causing a riot
That's why I stay quiet
But when you do
You're the weird one that no one wants to talk to
Spazzing batshit going off on the world
Turn the lights down
Flush it down
Watch it whirl, watch it twirl
Down to the final swirl
Same goes to all the girls
That ever turned me down
Will never live it down
Staying to myself, no talk
Just getting better growing as a man
I don't need y'all anymore!
Found a way to close that heavy door
All alone, closed doors
No more, open sores
With the lights low
Music in my ears
Changed within the years
Man Troy you're a weird one
Fine by me, everybody copes differently
Can't you see, this is how my heart beats
Great, now you got it racing with your social interaction
I am not the man I used to be
Face to face altercation with evolution