Hands Of January - Lately Lyrics

I took a page and ripped it up
My thoughts and prayers went with the wind
And sometime in the night, you walked by me
A butterfly without its wings
Is just an insect on the ground
And sometime in the night, you stepped on me
Suffocate on everything
Overdose on nothing at all
I can remember
When we picked the wings of insects for a joke
I can remember
It was the day I lost my own
Lately, I've been thinking maybe all that is behind me
Can I ever feel the way that I felt again?
I need something, anything to creep up and remind me
That I have something worthy of the love I have to give
Why is it that I always have to be the martyr?
I'm so tired of suffering to get what I deserve
Lately, I've been thinking maybe all that is behind me
But every time I do there's something else I have to learn
A couple kids sat on a bus
So much in love that they don't care
Where it stops, they'll get off when the road ends
A simple kiss now something more
Put on display for all to see
I remember when I was just like them
Something so grotesque yet freeing
Beautiful is their abandon
I form a smile
For myself just as much as them
Enjoy it while
You can cause it won't feel this way again
Lately, I've been thinking maybe all that is behind me
Can I ever feel the way that I felt again?
I need something, anything to creep up and remind me
That I have something worthy of the love I have to give
Why is it that I always have to be the martyr?
I'm so tired of suffering to get what I deserve
Lately, I've been thinking maybe all that is behind me
But every time I do there's something else I have to learn