What does it say about me
That I find comfort in the storms nobody sees
Cause when the dark clouds roll at least I know
Oh, they're coming after me
I've been working on my peace
But in my darkness it just seems so out of reach
And I can tell you that you're worthy but I can't seem
To practice what I preach
People say that I deserve this
I never thought that they were right
It feels so foreign to be happy
Oh, I feel so guilty in the light
I'm accustomed to the chaos, I'm familiar with the rain
But I'm giving myself
Permission to change
Oh, I'm tired of holding on
Cause I've been sleeping next to everything that I've done wrong
And I dream of waking up
Open up the shades, I wanna feel the sun
People say that I deserve this
I never thought that they were right
It feels so foreign to be happy
Oh, I feel so guilty in the light
Light, light
I'm accustomed to the chaos, I'm familiar with the rain
But I'm giving myself
Permission to change