Happy - After School Special Lyrics

I don't like parties
Unless it's Halloween
Dress up like someone else
Someone that isn't me
Watch me digress
To a familiar place
If it works it works
So why risk changing up the pace
I've gotten so good
At letting myself down
That when things are well and I'm feeling fine
It kinda freaks me out
I know just what to say
Know just how much to give
If I come too clean will it fit the narrative

All I do lately is hang around
Make plans just to cancel them
And stay at the house
Chill in the basement
Watch old DVDs
Play Nintendo 64 until my fingers bleed
And on the drive home
I can't help but think about
How I wouldn't change a single thing
About the here and now
Pull up to the stoplight
And I watch time freeze
Hope I remember this when my hair's gray
And my knees are weak

Strike match now baby
Let's burn it down
Wash all the blood off of our hands
As we escape the crowd
And I've been thinking maybe
I want more than this
Does it scare you to think
There's more than lust there
When we kiss
My head's so hazy
I built walls around myself
It's toxic, if it's lost
Can it still be found
So take me somewhere
Where we can be alone
Lock all the doors and
Unplug all the phones

The timing could not be worse
Of that I'm well aware
But your lips have a way of reminding me
That good things come in pairs
So take your time with me
I swear I'll do my best
Bury all my insecurities
Inside your neck
If I could breathe you in
For just one more second
I'll remember why I always try
To try and try again
Roll over to face you
And I watch time freeze
Know I'll remember this when my hair's gray
And my knees are weak.