Hawk Mt. Sanctuary - Pay My Respects Lyrics

The sun is up, but i don't plan on leaving bed
There's not too many good ideas in my head
Think i'll just lie here awhile and dream instead
Of a life where i no longer long to be dead
Cause it's not like i want what i don't got
It's just that i can't seem to escape the thought
That i've trapped myself in before i even begin
I just give in to the pain
And i don't find no relief in my blurry brain

The serpent of death wants to taste my flesh
So i'm putting up daisies, nice and fresh
To pay my respects to the dead
And what you looked like on that day
Well, i can't get the the thought out of my head

So i bury my sadness in a mental grave
Somewhere to keep the hurt to save
In case i need it on a rainy day
When there's nothing else to do or say
So i hold my hate locked away
What could i do, there's nothing to change
You're gone and now i have to stay
Here alone with my own mistakes
And i don't think i can manage it this way

The servant of death wants my final breath
So i'm giving him all that i have left
And he can lay me right next to the dead
For all i care anyway
Because i haven't even gotten to live yet

I keep myself locked away
Its hard to talk when you have nothing to say
My wants are few and my needs no concern
I haven't the mind to try or the body to learn

The sermon of death wants to put me to rest
So i have to obligations left
I can finally pay my respects to the dead
And this is what i'll say
Something that's already been said
In a much better way