My influences run deep
Who's helping me
If I'm all for show
Where do I go
When I'm not alone
Holding my shoes in one hand
Fanning myself undercover
Is all of this worth it
I'm still trying to learn if
My throat's on the line for others
Surrender myself to the influence
Bathing myself in the what ifs
If life would be different
I'm still trying to learn if
My voice is on the line for a lover
Am I forsaken
For choosing between
What they want and what I need
And pulling a string
Right through the borders
Of one choice from another
Where's my head gone
Holding my shoes in one hand
Fanning myself undercover
Is all of this worth it
I'm still trying to learn if
My throat's on the line for others
Surrender myself to the influence
Bathing myself in the what ifs
If life would be different
I'm still trying to learn if
My voice is on the line for a lover
All this shaking
All this trading
Losing myself
That's regret in the making
Am I here
Am I here
Holding my shoes in one hand
Fanning myself undercover
Is all of this worth it
I'm still trying to learn if
My throat's on the line for others
Surrender myself to the influence
Bathing myself in the what ifs
If life would be different
I'm still trying to learn if
My voice is on the line for a lover