Heartsmith - In a Way That's Beautiful Lyrics

Why can't I believe you
When you tell me
You're gonna stay
Why can't I believe you
When you say
I make your day

Why can't I believe you
When you tell me the truth
Maybe I'm just scared
I want you
But you won't want me too

Cause if I hurt myself
Before you can hurt me
Then I can feel like
I'm in control
But at the end of the day
I'm still left hurting
Just in a way
That's less beautiful

Maybe I'm a burden
Or maybe you're just busy
Either way I'm feeling
Just a little too uneasy

So I start overthinking
Until I am panicking
About a story I made up
That's not really happening

Cause if I hurt myself
Before you can hurt me
Then I can feel like
I'm in control
But at the end of the day
I'm still left hurting
Just in a way
That's less beautiful

Maybe one day
I'll get over myself
And let go of the fear
That likes to hold me back
But until then
I'll just repeat the cycle
And hope you meant it
When you said you'd last

Cause if I hurt myself
Before you can hurt me
Then I can feel like
I'm in control
But at the end of the day
I'm still left hurting
Just in a way
That's less beautiful

So can I learn to love hurting
In a way that's beautiful
Can I learn to love hurting
In a way that's beautiful