Herd of Bison - The Awakening Lyrics

I've arrived
Lost myself before I lost my mind I couldn't hide
All the times my pride would dictate when I'd tell a lie
Cause I couldn't look you in the eyes and tell you why
I'd wanna take my life
I was lost inside
And I couldn't decide if I want to
Go on this journey alone when I lost you
I tried
Didn't take me very long to see it backfire
So I took a deeper look to see how I'm wired
Now I'm here and I don't ever wanna be tired
I don't wanna die
I'm enjoying life
And I could make things even better if I want to
I'm not alone anymore and my life's all new
So
Now Imma follow it
Tell you the truth I want nobody following
Enough of the wallowing
I looked at myself in the mirror and swallowed it
I'm at the end of the rope
I couldn't keep trying to look for the positives
Hundreds of ways just to cope
With vacancy and all the hateful prerogatives
I don't even know what to say
When everything piled on me starts to weigh
I had to look into my flaws
A weak point won't leave me here dead in the clay
I won't let that happen today
Pushed all the stress and the flashbacks away
Who needs a cave
It's time to be brave
Remember that I'm not yet dead in the grave
Miles and miles of tackling gravel and sand
I'm beat up and bruised from the land
Stumbling barely can stand
You don't understand
I won't be remembered as damned
Nobody gave me a hand
I woke up and started my plan
I knew that I can
Got up and instantly ran
I'm not a lamb
I'm starting to feel like the man
Waited my whole life for this
Just to learn to survive this shit
But now I'm climbing
To my death
Wait
So far but I finally got here
No sentiment, I don't care if I die here
I'm the motherf*cking man I gotta make that clear
Captain of the ship I step away and let God steer
So far but I finally got here
No sentiment, I don't care if I die here
I'm the motherf*cking man I gotta make that clear
Captain of the ship I step away and let God steer
Even obstacle I've come across I've endured
I'm stronger now, maybe solitude is obscure
I've learned a thing or two about how much I'm worth
Never would trust in the church
And maybe that's why I'm cursed
I know my momma ain't raised no bitch
When I look too close I can see the matrix
Racists, tearing our brothers away just for wages
Heinous, how we doing it all just for greatness
The strangeness is we're still alive
Somehow we've managed to all live and grow and divide
Deeply rooted our hate in our own children's minds
Now the next generation will be just as blind
When blindness is how we're here in the first place
When will kindness go and take the first place
One person does wrong and you go for the whole race
Grow the f*ck up
You're humanity's disgrace
I'm so damn tired of this shit
I'm losing my patience I admit
But there's still so much to go
And I'm running out of time to know
I think I know
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Again
I'm alive
I see things as they are, ain't never gonna slow my drive
I found a way to fix myself and have a better life
It took me so much just to leave the hive
But now I thrive
I will survive