lost my religion Video (MV)

Tryna be easier on myself
Am I to blame for my mental health
Can't live up to my expectations
Maybe I might make a deal with satan
All of my steps have been met with pain
I am a shell of who I remain
So far gone lost my religion
Stare at the stove when I stand in the kitchen
Wonder what I would do in your position
Let go of the wheel just to see how it feels
Pourin up liquor and skippin my meals
Lookin to substances hopin to heal
I know bout darkness how quickly it grows
Nothing that happens is under my nose
Cherish my friends and forgive all my foes
Lessons I learned in this life I was chose

So when all is said and done I know I tried
Still I wish that you had made it through the night
We lost the fight with no time for goodbyes
Now your cosmic love is written in the sky

Got angels and demons that live on my shoulder
Here I thought that you'd stay until I was older
The thief of my joy and the root of my pain
How did you think that I'd go on the same
Thought we'd find pleasure
Ain't left us no letter
Yet this grief you brought me has helped me get better
I don't understand all these complex emotions
This tear that I shed but a drop in the ocean
A drop in the ocean of all of the rest
The waves overcome me but I do my best
The current is dragging
Yet here I'm still standing
I owe it to you now to honor your flesh

But when all is said and done I know I tried
(I know I tried)
Still I wish that you had made it through the night
(Made it through the night)
We lost the fight with no time for goodbyes
(No time for goodbyes no no)
Now your cosmic love is written in the sky

I swear I tried

I swear I tried
I swear I tried
I swear I tried

Least I
Least I know I tried